Need a day off to recoup from the weekend.

That's what I'm talking about...a weekend like I just had...it was awesome. It was a nice balance of rest and fun and the crappy weather didn't even play a part in stopping anything. I am tired from the long weekend but I'll get through this day. Of course it's suppose to be beautiful all week which is a little maddening that this last weekend couldn't have had SOME of that weather but what are you going to do?

It's been a rough morning...things are going crazy here today with the announcement of the demise of Lehman Brothers and in turn the sale of Merrill Lynch to Bank of America. Scary times. Must go earn my keep.

Rainbow Connection

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r4GBnpS83As&feature=related

Check out this version of my favorite song. It's pretty dang amazing. If you think about rainbows really they are about opportunity and what they hope to offer us....kinda like a shooting star. My favorite line is - rainbows have nothing to hide. This song is really full of hidden meaning if you really listen to it.

Who said every wish would be heard and answered?


Enjoy this thought on a day like today.

Why are there so many songs about rainbows and what's on the other side?Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
And rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers and me.
Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it,
And look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
All of us under its spell,
We know that it's probably magic...
Have you been half asleep?
And have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name....
Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors?
The voice might be one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
It's something that I'm s'posed to be...
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
Laa, da daa dee da daa daa,La laa la la laa dee daa doo...

Beautiful day beautiful weather

Man I can't say enough how much I LOVE this weather. It's freaking awesome. I had the day off and so I played a little later last night than I would have on a Thursday night and then I sort of kept playing most of the night. My body still woke up at 7am though. I really tried to stay in bed but I was up and frankly I needed a few asprins..yeah...a little more than moderately sedated I was the night before. Oh well..it was fun.

I had today off and ran errands and then spent some time sitting alone at a coffee shop outside watching the world go by and just thought. Nothing earth shattering or all that deep really, just enjoying my life, the day and this incredible weather. I have so many things on my TO DO lists but I took some time to just chill alone. Not something I am good at doing but I am working on that.

I am working at ET until 7 then off to meet a friend for drinks...although tonight I believe I'll be having soda water and a twist of lime...but I will poke in some wings!!

Enjoy this sublime weather and weekend. Hoping to have fun posts this weekend as I plan to have my camera with me to document this weekend. :) Stay tuned!

Maybe age really doesn't matter

You know I realize I'm old...well not OLD old but....older. I get the higher the number the more years thing but I've never really felt old. Oh I've had moments or days but over all when I think about my actual age I'm sort of surprised. Maybe because I don't have a husband or kids wearing me down to my bones but I don't really feel my age. I don't really think about it until I meet someone I like and would like to spend more time with and then I realize OMG - they are only XX years old...like it's a bad thing. Why does it really even matter? If you enjoy spending time with people, they aren't hurting you or you them who cares? I mean if I were having some romantic relationship with a 24 year old...maybe the age difference would matter in terms of connection or maturity or whatever but overall....does it really matter?

Last night I attended a food expo event and brought along my friend and her boy. They are WAY younger than me....early 20's but man, we had fun. We laughed, we ate, we even went to the MOA afterwards and I really enjoyed spending time with them. Age had absolutely NOTHING to do with it. It was so easy to be with them. We laughed alot....and not just inappropriate laughter, although there was some of that too, but the deep laugh that makes your sound go away and nothing but forced air coming out so you sound like a cartoon character laughter. Ahh, it was nice. Plus NO drama or any hidden agenda - just fun. Just a couple of free spirits who just wandered into my life - nice - thanks Universe. Plus it was really enjoyable to hang out with a couple who actually like each other...so refreshing. It got me thinking when I got home....age really doesn't matter. As long as people are having fun, enjoy each others company age is merely a math thing...and anyone who knows me at all knows how I feel about math! What a fun revelation for a Wednesday night in the beginning of fall. Man I can't tell you how happy this weather makes me.

There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. Life is too short to be anything but happy. I think I'll try being happy for a bit...see where that brings me.

Common sense or common courtsey?

When you walk in a door and someone is directly behind you do you just keep walking or do you make an attempt to hold the door for them. I don't mean stop every time and hold the door and let them walk in first I mean by not letting is slam shut in their face? When two people approach an escalator and after just having let the door slam in their face do you then sort of jump in front of them to get on the escalator or do you stop and let them on first? What has happened to common sense? I realize we all have things going on in our own lives but how can people be SO unaware that anyone besides themselves exists? Constantly amazes me. It shouldn't I guess but it does. We as people have become so self involved that we cease to think that our actions might actually effect (or is affect?) someone outside ourselves? I try to be really conscious of that, I'm not always 100% successful but I try.

My note from the Universe today -

For those who ponder and wonder and wrestle with the idea of what it is they really want, I have an answer that each would wholeheartedly agree with: "HAPPINESS."

And for those who ponder and wonder and wrestle with exactly what will bring them true happiness, I have an answer that each would wholeheartedly disagree with: "Just do something, do anything, as soon as possible, and do it with care."
And I'd add, "Trust me."

Seems very simple doesn't it. Maybe that's the key to true happiness...simple actions. Worth a try isn't it.

Gossip is fun!

I like to know things as much as the next girl and I sure love celebrity gossip but man...some people freaking live to gossip! It's like heroin for them. There is this one person at work who is always asking me a million questions the second I get in the door. No matter what time it is...doesn't she ever go home or sleep? She is like a vulture waiting for me to come in every day swooping over me forcing me to share stuff or to ask me a bazillion questions about some event that happened the day before. I think I used to be that person.

I used to be a morning person, I would wake up all re-charged and ready to hit the ground running and I was the question queen. I would be all perky and chatty and talkative and now I want to shoot laser beams out my eyes at people like that. I never got that before. I TOTALLY get that now. I need to be up for awhile before I can even think about talking to people and for sure I can't deal with "morning" people first thing in the morning. Maybe age does change a person? All I know is I want to strangle freaky happy morning people without even thinking about it. Gossip is fun but not until after I've had a cup of coffee.

I'm amazed at how much stuff I don't know on a daily basis too. It's funny, people think because of my job I know so much more than I really do. Sometimes that's OK because they end up telling me things they THINK I know and other times things go down that I SHOULD have known about and I'm clueless. Corporate worlds are such a Rubik's cube.

I watched this movie last night (can check out free movies from the ET) called Addicted to Love with Matthew Broderick, Kelly Preston and Meg Ryan. It was basically the story of a couple (Mat & Kelly) who ended up breaking up because she found something different in New York - a better life, man, job...just better. He couldn't accept the fact that they were done and he followed her to New York and set up camp in an abandoned building across the street and he had some kind of equipment that let him spy on her and her new lover and then he met Meg Ryan and chaos ensued. Overall pretty uneventful and unbelievable but I guess a fine enough distraction from doing homework. One line in the movie really hit me...Matt said something like...you can't help who you love. Isn't that a powerful statement?

I remember recently saying to someone - Your heart wants what who your heart wants. Even though your head knows it's wrong, you can't make your heart stop wanting that person. Wow...such deep thoughts aren't they? Are we suppose to love someone so much that we forget ourselves and our own needs so much that only that other person matters? I've seen it happen when someone has a baby. Unconditional love...that all consuming, all powerful unconditional love. No questions asked, you just give your heart and soul to another being without even thinking about it. Wow...I don't think I've ever been able to do that. Don't know if I could. Scares me to even think about it but it happens every day. I've lost good friends to that sort of a feeling. They get all involved in a new realationship and the only thing they have to talk about is that other person. Shoot me now man...shoot me now.

Guess that's why I am who I am.

Feeling and looking are two different things

I have days where I feel like - well like a true trailer park mama. Then there are days I feel fantastic like when I'm wearing the right outfit and the perfect pair of shoes. This weekend was more of the latter...especially on Sunday. I was really tired on Sunday but pushed myself to be productive and accountable. Two things I don't so much enjoy doing anymore. I sorta get it when older people say they are just plain tired....sadly I'm really starting to get that.

Saturday night I had a friends bbq and got home before midnight...so not terribly late and I only had 1 glass of wine, I intended on taking a shower when I got hom but was sooooo tired that I just crawled into bed. Since it was my weekend to work, I knew I had to be up and downstairs to open the building by 7:30am so I set my alarm for 7am. I intended on taking a shower and starting my day...well that didn't happen either. I hit snooze once (10 min) and then had about 20 min. to get dressed and downstairs. It only takes about 45 min to 1 hr to do all the things I need to do to open the building but then I was going grocery shopping and then laundry because our laundry room is going to be closed for a week (I think longer) so I was on a mission to get a lot done before I had to be back in the office at 11am.

I have to admit, I didn't put a lot of effort into my appearance, I did comb my hair and wore decent enough clothes but I beleive I could have done better...I was dragging and really sorry I had given up caffeine at this point. I felt like I looked like I lived back in my trailer. Ugh. Funny thing was people kept commenting on how nice I looked...I was like ARE YOU FREAKING BLIND? I guess how you feel doesn't necessiarly match how you look. What an interesting lesson to learn. It took me all night to think on that one though.

Today is the beginning of United Way week at work, they call it Employee Giving Campaign or EGC week....today myself and a co-worker are the hosts of Plinko. I'm pretty excited about that because even though I didn't get to play it for real on TPIR, I can have a moment now and host it. I hope it's as fun as I think it's going to be.