Wednesday, January 20, 2010

It takes a village

Somedays it feels like there is no light in the tunnel I travel in. That I wander around aimlessly and bounce off walls. Sometimes the walls are soft and comforting, almost like arms holding me tightly - encouraging me with it's gentle push back onto my path to keep traveling. Other days it feels as if the walls are covered by years of some kind of sharp protruding pieces that break down the walls around me into sharp shards of indifference and pain.

There comes a time in every ones life where nothing seems to go our way, when nothing seems to turn out right. There is no place to go, no open door. You travel down this path only to find out there is no where to go, no place to turn. It's hard when you realize this.

It's not as dark and dismal as it sounds, I mean it more of a thought process kind of a way. One day you just realize that the path you are on is not really a path but a muddy, muddled unmowed patch of overgrown weeds and it's time to stop and find the field of flowers.

It's important to have people in your life that can hold your hand while you wander. People who instinctively know to make things feel OK....like the friend who brings you a giant tub of cheese balls just when you really needed something to make a gloomy time better.

Lately I've realized how hard it is to BE that person. It's hard to be that person for someone else while trying to manage your own life. I think that's where that old saying "It takes a village to raise a child" comes from. It does take a village.

Your never given more than you can handle....but some days doesn't it feel like your going to implode from all the external stuff being forced upon you?

All creation emerges from darkness.........sometimes we have to trudge though the dark tunnels of our life to emerge into the light of day on the other side and the best you can hope for is to find some amazing people to help you get there.

Is it really so hard to find people in life like that? I think if we just open our eyes we very well may already be surrounded by them.

It does take a village.

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