Noise or energy?

I've clearly lived alone too long. Now that I'm spending some time with people around me 24/7 - I realize how much I miss another person in my space. It comforts me.

I like knowing someone else is there. Not just to be with me, just there. The other night as I struggled with the time change....2 hrs ahead of what my body is used to, I sat up playing on my computer and the sound of someone else in the same space with me was really soothing. I like the sound of someone else breathing, moving, just...... being. I like a sounds more than I realized.

I think that's what I like so much about Vegas, it's constant movement and noise and activity. There is always someone around. I imagine after a while, probably a short while, it would be very waring but for now I really found myself very happy here.

When we were gambling...er, I mean "gaming" (that's the cool new way to talk about gambling - and I'm nothing if I'm not cool!) we were having fun - doing OK on the games - but I wasn't really enjoying it...then right before we came up stairs I found MY machine. It's the Wheel of Fortune machine but it was LOUD! It made so much noise even if I won like $4! It was on the edge of being obnoxiously loud....as a matter of fact when the beverage lady came by she even commented on how loud it was and I said I KNOW.....IT GIVES ME GREAT JOY. And it did, it made me totally happy and my $5 seemed to go a lot further than ever!

As we sat eating breakfast Saturday before we left Vegas I was just enjoying the hub bub of the casino and I realized the blaring music, the sound of the machines and all the people with their glazed over faces really made me happy. I love the noise. I shared this with Rachael and she pointed out it's probably not really the noise as much as it's the energy of the place. Vegas has a very different energy...and I realized that's it. It's not the noise or the sound, it's the energy.

The energy another person gives off combined with their own sounds.....make me really happy. Sounds....I like the sounds people make. Just their everyday sort of sounds, the sound of them breathing, the funny little quirkly things they do.....sounds. I like to help people make sounds too! Like when someone offers up a big old belly laugh...there isn't really a better sound in the world than someone who just lets it come from their soul! I think that's my happiest sound!! Some of my friends have the best laughs too...and that sound alone gives me immense joy.

So I guess when it comes down to it.....its all about energy and sound it equals happiness....or a form of it. What a funny thing to discover on a vacation. :)